Sunsets Into Sunrises
Bishop Martin - The Progress of a Soul in the Beyond
- Chapter 114 -
ABOUT THE FORM-CHANGING NATURE OF SATAN. A HINT ABOUT MARTIN'S NATURE. THE NEWCOMERS SUSPECT THE LORD TO BE NEAR. CHANCHAH'S HUMBLE ACKNOWLEDGMENT OF GUILT.
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(Now Chanchah says, quite worried): "Oh, you, my love, will all these guests be able to bear the horrible sight of that monster? And are you sure it cannot harm us? Oh, Lama, Lama, what a frightening scene that will be! See how terribly it is already beginning to writhe. What rage in the expression of those terrible fire-eyes! Oh, friend, whoever will have the courage to look at this monster when it is here before us?"
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(Say I): "Calm yourself! This guest is capable of adopting any shape that may seem of benefit in a certain situation. However, we shall control him, so do not be afraid. Everything will go smoothly."
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(Says Chanchah): "Oh, dearest friend, my love, I have full confidence in you, just as I have in Lama. But I do not have much confidence in brother Martin. He is so forward in his actions, but when the situation becomes serious, he soon retreats as if he were not strong enough to face up to the things he should. Therefore, I think he might do more harm than good in his task of leading the monster up here. Borem is all right; he is a man of wisdom and strength. He can be relied upon. But Martin is and remains impetuous, full of self-assertion but incapable of handling a serious situation."
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(Say I): "You are not wrong, My dearest, but he still fills his present place here perfectly. In the great order of Lama, also such beings are needed who will tackle a task immediately whether they are equal to it or not. This encourages others to do something too, those who are often much more clever than the one who made the start. The very wise ones are often hypercritical and do not dare touch a thing before they have not logically worked out all the reasons for or against tackling it. And, therefore, there must be Martins too, who possess less wisdom but instead all the more fervid activity, which is often preferable to too much wisdom. Therefore, rest assured about Martin. He will do his job well as long as he does it in accordance with My instructions."
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(Says Chanchah): "Oh yes, I am sure of that! There is not a doubt in my heart that you are the wisest here. The only thing I do not like with you is the fact that I still do not know who you really are. Recently, when I asked only your name, you told me that my love for you would reveal everything to me. However, notwithstanding my incomprehensibly great love for you, I cannot find out anywhere who you actually are, least of all from my own heart. Oh, my friend, you whom I love above everything, do tell me your name."
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(Say I): "My dearest, sweetest Chanchah, the name alone would not be of any help to you as long as you are unable to conceive all that it stands for. If you had paid attention to all that I have said, you would be fairly clear about My identity by now. Watch now very carefully what and how I shall speak, how the others will speak to Me, and what happens in response to a word from Me. Then we two shall soon become better acquainted. But now be steady and unflinching, for I have motioned Martin and Borem to lead the raging monster here to us and they are already untying its chains."
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(Chanchah is now silent, but Gella approaches her and says): "Chanchah, if the unlimited power and might of this friend were known to you as I know it, you would at His side fear a thousand monsters like this less than a gnat!"
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(Chanchah is quite startled by these words, and says): "Sister, what are you saying? Oh, do go on and tell me about him whom I love so deeply. Do you know the glorious one? Oh, speak, speak, quickly! Could it be right what I secretly suspect? Oh, Lama, then Chanchah is either the happiest being in all the heavens or the most unfortunate one in all infinity!
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For I am a great sinner before Lama, having in my country once betrayed His would-be messengers, who, as a result, lost their lives in the most cruel way . If they were really Lama's messengers, then woe betide me if my suspicion is correct. For could you, sister, imagine any greater grief than to be cast off by him whom one loves so very much? If those whom I betrayed were only evil-doers and im-posters and not Lama's messengers - which, of course, I cannot yet decide - then maybe I could bear to face the most righteous judge. Oh, speak, speak, sister - but no, do not speak as yet! Let me enjoy this sweet uncertainty a while longer!"
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With these words, Chanchah collapses at My feet as if in a swoon. But I strengthen and comfort her.