The Great Gospel of John
Volume 3
Jesus' Precepts and Deeds through His Three Years of Teaching
Jesus near Caesarea Philippi
- Chapter 111 -
Union with the Lord.
Helena finally says, who had recovered a little from her too great joy of her heart, "Oh yes, I have understood all that; for your words have all the light, strength and life and emit from Your holy mouth as brightly and clearly as the purest source of the pasture of a high mountain, lit by the morning sun. But what should I do in order to calm my heart only a little more!? Lord, kill me if I rejoice; but my love for You surpasses now all my borders of life! Oh just allow me to touch Your hand!"
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I say, "Oh, do that in any case! Whatever your heart orders from out of its depths, do it, and it will never be a mistake; you can be fully assured of that!"
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At this Helena took hold of My left hand and pressed it with all her strength to her heart, cried again from sheer joy and said, sobbing, "Oh how happy must they be who can always be around You, oh Lord! Oh if only I could also always be around you!"
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I say, "Whoever is with Me in their hearts, I am always with them, and he is always with Me, and there lies the most important thing! For what use is it to someone who is all the time around Me personally, but his heart is nonetheless far from Me and rather depends on the mad world?! Truly, he is nonetheless more distant from Me than everything that you can only think as being the furthest away from Me!
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But whoever is as near to Me in their hearts as you are, My dearest Helena, then always remains right beside Me, if it seems externally that a many thousand times greater space separates him from Me than what separates us now from the last and smallest star, that your eye only glimpses for moments only as shimmering down out of limitless space.
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Yes, I tell you, whoever loves Me and actively believes that I am the One whose descent the fathers awaited, he is also fully one with Me, as I, as you feel Me here, am fully one with My Father in heaven! For love joins everything; God and creation become one through it, and no space can ever separate what the true and pure love from the deepest depths of heaven has joined.
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Through your love you will also constantly be the very closest to Me, even if for a short time in this world space separates you from My person; but one day, there in My kingdom of the purest spirit and of the fullest truth, you will never again be separated from Me! Have you, My dearest Helena, now understood even a little what has been said?"
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Helena says, "How can I not!? For in me it is now as light and bright as if a sun had risen in me, and it seems to me therefore as if it was clearly understandable what You, oh Lord, say to me, and my heart understands Your deepest sense.
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But now another highly important question comes from a not yet enlightened corner of my heart, and this is: How will you ever be able to thank Him who has showered you with such an effusive mercy? The very powerful love cannot count as thanks; for it is itself, as the whole life, a present of mercy from You! What a sacrifice and what worthy gift can I give you, my creator, in return as Your creation, as the most deserved thanks for such invaluable mercies? You see, oh Lord, it is still dark in my heart despite all this sunlight, and I cannot find an answer to such a highly important question! Oh Lord, wouldn't You like to help my heart out of embarrassment through a merciful word?"