The Great Gospel of John
Volume 4
Jesus' Precepts and Deeds through His Three Years of Teaching
Jesus near Caesarea Philippi (cont.)
- Chapter 137 -
The cowardly rabbi who broke his word.
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(Mathael:) "All present were astonished about the joy about the incomprehensible edifying cheerfulness of the children of the old Lazarus. Except for me and the three children, nobody else has seen anything; but nevertheless it was noticed by all present. Some thought that the three must have had a comforting vision. A few pharisees who also were present, thought, that the children, because of too much grief, became insane; but the little rabbi thought that my father has enchanted them in a very secret manner.
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But then I intervened with the little man and said loudly: 'Man, don't you remember what promises you have made to the face of my honest father?! How can you judge the extraordinary mercy of God in this way?! Be careful that Jehovah does not punishes you this very moment! Because you are not a person but a wretched animal!'
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Now, these my words made such an impression on the little rabbi, that he became Hippocratically pale like the corpse on the bed, and he started to tremble with his whole body.
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My father noticed this, went to him and asked him what has happened to him, that he became pale like a corpse. But the little man told him with a shaking tongue all the evil things I have revealed to him.
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But my father said to him: 'It serves you right! Why didn't you stay with your believe which you have promised me so dearly?! With God and His spirits one cannot make any jokes! Do you understand this? Either you believe, even if only on the grounds of those whose experience can forever not be denied, - or you stay as you are!
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What you are, be it entirely, either an angel or a devil! The worst of worst however is: wanting to be a double being, an angel and a devil in one and the same person! Sure, both of the arriving pharisees made by their entrance your head and your heart glowing?! You became fearful and began, as an earlier follower of the sect of the Sadducee, to dance according to their music, like the Greek let their bears dance to their music in before us; but at the same time you forgot to whom you have broken your oat! What do you want to do now, you wretched person?'
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But the rabbi covered his face and went away, and retreated most likely to Jerusalem to his living room, to think about all his mortal sins. What has happened further to him, until this hour I don't know; I only know that the father as well as I am, has seen him in Jerusalem at several occasions, but he always purposefully avoided us from far away. Why, out of rage or a kind of shyness, I also don't know. He also never came back to the house of Lazarus, although he forgot his enchanted flask there, - which we easily learned, since the young Lazarus and his sisters visited us afterwards quite often.
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Now, Lord, this is the story of me and my father in Bethany which we experienced as true and faithfully as I have told it here. At that stage everything of course was a indissoluble riddle to me. A lot is now much more clearer to me, only the two phenomena are still a riddle to me, and despite Your many explanations I still do not understand them. And these two phenomena are: firstly the light meteor at the physical sky at midnight and the accompanying spirits towards the west, and secondly the similar, pure spiritual light above the head of the already free floating soul above the corpse.
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Also, with this soul I did not saw an actual mist cloud beforehand, but only the same very properly developed form of a human, which only was connected to the body with a very light purple thread, which also sheared completely, upon which the soul immediately as completely free was standing with a brilliant-white pleated dress of the finest byssus among some wise and mighty spirits, as I have mentioned earlier.
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How these things and appearances are interconnected, I and certainly also all the others, would like to here from Your mouth! O Lord, explain this to us!"