The Great Gospel of John
Volume 4
Jesus' Precepts and Deeds through His Three Years of Teaching
Jesus near Caesarea Philippi (cont.)
- Chapter 68 -
Zorel's excuses.
The curiosity of the women was quite big; but My word nevertheless was more powerful and all went into the tents of Ouran, where they had to stay for as long until called again.
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After the women were looked after in this manner, Johannes said to Zorel: "Now, how about triggering your tense bow? It seems to me that you have wasted all your sharp arrows into the blue. Despite this you earlier wanted to enter into a fight with the infinite wisdom of God! I say to you, that you should talk if you still has something to say!"
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Finally Zorel says: "What should I say? To you - the gods will know from where - everything is anyway known what I have done from the cradle onwards; why should I tell you anything further? I could still speak; but why should I continue to justify myself? As I was and for the biggest part still am, I acted accordingly; because I could not act otherwise to what I have been in my soul! Can lions and tigers help it, that they are tearing beasts? This is their nature, and at the bottom of all reasoning they are not faulty, because they are, what they are! If they are evil, then only He who created and made them like this is guilty!
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Why are there thousands of people who are more devout than lambs, and why not I?! Did I then make myself to act in this way?! If I really wanted to be bad, I could deny everything what you have told me out of your wisdom; because sayings of wisdom of the individual never counts in front of a forum of a world-court as evidence, as long as they are not confirmed by other statements of witnesses. But I recognize your wisdom and believe to perceive you as person, who does not want to harm me, but want only to help, and therefore confess as true everything you have stated about me. I do not deny the truth of everything in the least; but certainly I still am allowed to justify myself!
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You have in anyway the free prerogative over me to report loudly what I ever have done according to my inclining nature; because more than kill me for that you cannot do, and death I can courageously look into the hollow, dark eyes and does not fear it! From that you can see, that I'm not a fearful rabbit. If you still know some more terrifying spectacles of my life, just get them off your chest; because for a long time already nothing in this world can embarrass me anymore!
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By the way, regarding the five maidens you are burden me with too much, if you accuse me of feeling only sorry for them because losing a sizeable profit by their death, which in fact did not only occurred because of a gentle violation, but because of the disintegration of a bad leprosy; I could even bring you a few credible witnesses who have heard that I most imploringly begged Zeus to save the maidens, and made an oath to the gods to keep the five maidens forever, if they could be cured and stayed alive. But when after thirty days all of them died despite all my care, I became disconsolate and once more took an oath not to touch any girls anymore and to stop slave trading. This I kept up to this hour, have moved therefore to here and bought myself a piece of property, but by the fire have now lost everything which I ever had acquired. - You can speak now, whether I also have told the truth this time round!"