The Household of God
Volume 2
Rise and spiritual prime of the first world empire Hanoch
- Chapter 113 -
THE LORD'S ADMONITION TO ADAM, WHO DESPAIRS BECAUSE OF HIS FOOLISHNESS
When Adam had heard this speech by Abedam he became sad, no longer knowing what he should say or do.
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Turning this over in his mind, he tried to find the great decisive, in the end compensating Why. But all his effort was in vain; he did not find it, and was just on the verge of throwing everything from him and beginning to curse himself as he now saw himself as the sole cause of all evil, wickedness and error.
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But Abedam grasped his hand, looked him firmly in the eye and said to him after a while:
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"Adam! What a man you are! Do you want to turn into a rock? Is life to you really something so despicable that you want to curse it in yourself and try to kill yourself thoroughly both in the spirit and in the flesh as well as in all the children I have let come forth from you?
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"Adam, almost up till now you have spent your long life cursing according to your harsh sense of justice. You were contented with it always thinking that I took pleasure in your inexorable harshness as a judge and in your curse against those of your children who were weak enough to carelessly offend against your will.
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"But now that I want to cleanse you by merely showing you all your faults, doing this visibly before you and all your children so as to fully prepare you for the total acceptance of the life out of Me, - in short, now that you learn that I take no pleasure at all in cursing or in judgment, but solely in the alone living love, you are exceedingly angry in your heart and weary of life.
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"Only now, after you have judged in your righteousness almost every mote on the earth, do you want to turn on yourself with your curses taking revenge on Me so to speak because through My great love, mercy and patience I am in opposition to your old judicial order.
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"O Adam, Adam, I tell you: You try My love and patience very much!
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"Remember how long I have been patient with you, Remember: When in the whole of infinity no sun was as yet shining and the earth had hardly been thought of by Me, your spirit, whom I had created for the purest love and free to become an independent being before Me, through its obstinacy caused Me great concern and began to try My patience.
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"What eternal periods of time have passed since I called you into existence!
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"And how much, through this succession of eternities, My patience has been sorely tried on your account.
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"Look at all the innumerable stars; count them, these endlessly many, great and solid worlds filling almost the entire visible, material infinity! What are they?
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"Adam, do you know what they are? O Adam, Adam, behold and listen:
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"Every little grain of sand on some world globe as such is on your part already a harsh trial for My patience and lasts more than a thousand years as measured against the passage of time.
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"Now count the innumerable worlds in all the endless spaces. Then count all the little grains of sand which, like closely arranged atoms, build them in endless variety. Then imagine for every single atom a thousand years of My love's divine patience with you.
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"When you have thoroughly pondered this, tell Me how much longer I must have patience with you for you to fully become a being as intended by My eternal love for you, and I shall agree to any term on your part.
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"But woe betide you if you should decide on suicide. I tell you: In a fraction of the shortest imaginable moment I would deliver you up, as well as all creation save the few faithful, to the fire of My wrath!
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"Verily, I will rather be forever patient with a sinner than for just a moment with a suicide!
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"So for once have a complete change of heart and recognize what I have done for you, and am still doing, and what I shall still be doing to all your children, and I shall turn to you and lift you out of the mire of your long-lasting blindness and give you life.
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"But from now on do no longer curse; for the earth has already been amply provided for a hundred thousand years with your judgment.
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"Do comprehend this and turn in your heart completely to Me. Amen."